The first day of school, for both Harry and I.
I slept well. I'm ready and the car is packed with all of the first day stuff for both Harrison and I. He's sleeping soundly which means I have 30 quiet minutes to myself before it's time to get him ready and hit the road.
Hopefully I got my tears out yesterday, and a few here and there over the past couple of weeks. He is going to be well taken care of, it's a very loving daycare/preschool. I am going to be just fine. I know these things in my head, but it's been a bit of a roller coaster when it comes to the heart. Something about changing your childcare situation is just overwhelming. I know that I have worked full-time as a mom for a while now, but this feels different. It's like he's going to school for the first time, and I'm having a hard time letting go.
This summer was glorious. It was completely ordinary, but it was most definitely the best summer I have ever had. Watching Harry grow into a toddler before my eyes was so much fun. I am more in love with this kid today than I ever thought possible.
Which is why I think this transition is so hard for me. Next summer he'll be a whole year older, and I'm sure it'll be just as wonderful as it was this year...but I just don't want to say goodbye to this season.
Oh well...time just keeps on moving and things change. It's just life right?
I know. And after today I will just have to get over it. But for just a brief moment I'm letting myself feel what I'm feeling. A sense of loss in a way; saying goodbye to what used to be, and hello to a whole new normal. Harry will be safe and loved, he will learn new things at school that will help him continue to grow up. These are all good things. And I will most
If you read this and want to send a prayer to heaven for me, Harry (and his teachers too)...I would so appreciate it! I know that God is near to me in this emotional struggle. And that He will be near to both Harry and I as we navigate our new routine.
Also, I have a huge class this year...thankfully I guess I've been more focused on life at home to really worry about it